I have spoken to a lot of people who have been interested in doing Respect The Corners but haven't because they let fear dictate their decision. Fear of not being skinny enough, strong enough, knowledgable enough, dedicated enough, and so many more excuses. They look at this DTS as something unattainable because the characteristics they haven't perfected. So they say, “Once I’ve done crossfit for a year or two and build up muscle and knowledge then i’ll come do it.” The interesting part about this statement is that if they wait to gain wisdom & strength by themselves on something that God is calling them to do, they aren't letting Him grow them how He wants to. They aren't allowing themselves to be humbled before the Lord. They aren't allowing God to come through in times of need so their faith stays in a stagnant place. There is no reliance or trust in the Lord with these reasons.
Sorry, too honest?
I am able to say these things because they are ALL lies that tried stopping me from coming and doing RTC. Throughout the 9 months I prepared for RTC, the enemy tried so hard to instill these lies in my head. But because I knew that God had called me to be humble and not rely on my own understanding-I know that RTC was something God wanted me to do.
If you are reading this and really feeling like RTC is something God wants you to do but you have a little hesitation-be honest with yourself. Here are some questions to consider.
Is this hesitation from you or from the enemy?
Is this hesitation coming from a place of fear or rejection from previous situations?
Is this hesitation coming from the enemy telling you that you aren't good enough?
Or is this hesitation coming from a place of nervousness because you know that God is going to stretch you so far beyond your comfort zone?
The answer to all of these questions is simple: God has made us all victorious.
We don't have to be fearful of the future because we know where we’re going one day-heaven. We don’t need to worry about failing because even when we do, He uses it to humble us and uses it to propel us into the next season of our lives. We don't need to doubt our abilities because God equips the called, He doesn't call the equipped.
When I was preparing for RTC, I went through constant spiritual warfare, especially with working out and getting fit before coming. I had a free membership to a crossfit gym and to a spin studio (which for those of you who don't know, these are two of the most expensive memberships for working out) and I worked out maybe 5 times 3 months before going. I really felt like the Lord wanted me to know absolutely nothing about crossfit and not to be fit at all. When I got to Kona for RTC, I was 20 pounds heavier than I had ever been before and was out of shape beyond belief. Still not knowing anything about crossfit, I continued with the classes and started learning about this sport.
Looking back at everything now, I see God through it all. I see that my intentions for working out before coming was all based on fear of being the worst athlete. The fear of being the biggest person in the gym and the fear of being last. I see that I was trying to create a safety net for myself so I wouldn't be embarrassed. I see that I was trying to cut off the humbling process that God wanted me to go through.
Now 2 months in, I still have no idea what I am doing in the crossfit box. I still have to ask questions constantly, be the one with the training bar, and sometimes not have a partner because I can't lift as much as other people. Every time I am encountered with the enemy's voice telling me that I need to work extra hard to catch up to the other people, that I will never be strong, that I should have worked out before hand, or that I need to stop eating so I can catch u. Every time I workout, I am encountered with these thoughts of shame and guilt from the enemy. But guess what? I have the Creator of the universe who died for my sins, affirming me that I am exactly where I need to be. I am reminded with the truth that I am being humbled and stretched. He has been revealing these old lies that have formed all the insecurities I have today and replacing it with truth that tells me who I should be because of His love for me. He is taking me through such a hard but beautiful process of realizations, revelations and learning humility.
Friends, let me encourage you with my story. You do not have to know it all and be super strong to be in RTC. The leadership teams meets you where you are and comes along side of you to support you in the best way that you need it. Do not let the fears and lies that come from the enemy persuade your decision. God will transform your heart in ways you never thought possible. He will give you so much confidence in a place you never thought possible.